I have seen all of it. It seems that in a span of three years I have inherited, enriched and
enlightened my mind.
Sometimes I tend to blame others for their ignorance and look down on those who follow different
paths. (My own fault) Now it seems like it was them on me. The fact is, people do grow smarter and even though they learn
and see the same things that I do, they refuse to learn. Todays' living and standards are based on a piece of paper that says
you are conformed to the limited edjucation and a college diploma. It is not the capacity of your ability but, the size of
your wallet.
No matter how much I see or learn, there will always be more tests and visions. That is something
I am greatful for. I have been blinded by these complications and to even see a point to all of it. I have grown immune to
conformity and opposed to religion. No answer could solve the eternal question of purpose. There are too many faces, to many
beings, prepared for anything to be solved.
I cannot see and I have done deaf to the reality of society. All I see is equations, figures
and mental pictures. I am but one man, one man on his own to discover the many truths in life. I cannot see anything perfectly
anymore. My truest and social skills have been crushed through my past. All I have now is an everlasting feeling of remorse
and regret. I know that one day my meaning will appear and may I suceed or fail? Only Time will tell and one day my time
will come to an end. Whats next? There is no answer, only questions.
