How can a follower preach his truth? Is it faith, a sense of guidance or is it a misguiding
sense of insecurity? What truth do we have in this world of lies? What freedom do we have in a world of slavery through socialistic
standings?
The answer is none. What kind of land do we live in and with what meaning? We cant even trust
our own families, let alone our senses. The only feelings we know are hate, anger and greed. Not even love exists anymore,
it along with our entire social environment has ceased to exist.
I too have been manipulated and destroyed because of my own loyalty and perseverence. I have
lost my meaning, my purpose, my reason for all that I have left. I WAS a lie, a fake. Constantly moving, looking for
something to strengthen me, to motivate me. When I did not find it I would lie to myself to avoid personal pity.
Now I have nothing left. I feel empty like a ghost withought a shell. I have lost myself. I
feel like I have fallen through the depths of time and space. To a place where I was a young boy. Eager to gain the knowledge
that once filled me with joy but now sickens me. When will the time come where my mind will find another way, another meaning,
another lie to follow or have I lost that ability along with my hope.
These are the times where I wish I was not so ignorant to believe I had something going for
me. That I had some meaning in this world of creulty. All my life I have been looked down on and doubted by my peers, family
and anyone else who I attempted to speak any truth to. They must have been right, who am I to say who is better than who,
what is right and what is wrong. I have been spoiled and blinded by todays words. An evil that has corrupted us all in time.
Now there is no hope, time has come to an everlasting halt and there is no other that can help our existance.
