A new time and A new thought. This is the beginning of a new era. I have lost some of my
motivation and replaced it will ambition. No longer have I been cursed with my own sorrow that has brought me down so much.
Not I cannot even focus on anything that was once close to me though.
These are the pages of delusion. These are the words that represent the thoughts that I once
had but, when I tried to speak they were replaced with pain and hardship. These words no longer represent purity and truth
but rather a sense of shallowness. I guess I did not realize what I had until I lost it once more. I have once again gained
the ignorance that has always been a part of me. The ignorance that I have once forsaken but now accept as a way of life.
Many of these pages do not represent a deep feeling I have now but, had once in my life. I have finally been able to
express a few of the thoughts that I once had. Even though I have lost those true feelings that inspired my thoughts.
However, even though I lost my trueness and my ability that has still been translated to ink,
there is a way. I still see this loss, as everything, as a gift. I have never once doubted that the future is real nor had
a method to bring that future. This loss will teach me and grant me the ability to understand the world I once alienated myself
from. There are many risks and many possibilities. One day I will free myself once again from this world, from all of
these cursed possessions which I have limited my open mind to. When that happens I will or cannot write until my freedom has
been granted. Until then I will learn.
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