I wish I could share my answers but I am just a blind man who follows Gods fufulling directions. Every single step I take it seems that I am knocked back three more. Many see this as a hardship but, I am very greatful for it. I am so greatful for it becasue it shows me what I am missing so I do not take it for granted. I am very happy to be a part of his plan and no girlfriend or understanding friends could be better.

     I know it has been quite a while since I have made a writing that pertains to the same subject as this but it was building up inside me. Building up like a full stomach but still eating sugar cookies.

     Every single day my ambition pushes me forward to make this required change. Through the fear that remains in my sould forbids me from analyzing my closed knowledge to anyone. For the one single reason that people refuse to comprehend it. I have noticed that there are two different times, deep and shallow. ( I know because I am constantly reminded.) 85% of todays people are shallow and it is these who refuse to accept it. These people do nothing but outcast me from my righteous life by tempting me with the forbidden actions.

     Through every single conversation I am tempted and tested though I always retain the positive factors in my life. My courage, my ambition, my lack of carelessness and my benelovence. I am greatful for anything and everything God has given to me and the fallbacks he has shown to me as well. I wish I could break this down more for you but the answers are deep in my soul. "You can study science but you cannot analyse the soul" - Zachary Kellar.

     I am sick of the misunderstanding and underestimating and all of the prejudism. I now vowe my life to end it all. My motivation is astronomical now that I have been so close to realing it all in for so long now. Yet until the past year I have done nothing but ignoring its negetivity and accepting the good way as a path of life. This is my final stage of life and I promise I will make all of my people; girls or guys, proud. My efforts will NOT be in vein. I can promise you that.